Behold the human candle.
I am waxy
Therein I am wicked
I burn
Until I am no more.

Today I talked with the girl I like.
She asked me if our relationship was weird for me.
I answered:
“I like you a lot and I enjoy spending time with you”
What more was there to say?

I’ve been feeling off these past few days.
Up and down.
Rain shine; rain shine.
Small town syndrome?

Head-spins.
I’m Tired.
I’ve been exercising lots
And watching my diet

I jogged and ate trifle today
I sold booze and studied
I said “safe travels” to Mitch

And I rode my bike
And I fretted
I fretted over so many, many things.

Uni. The new month. My new look. A new challenge. My opinion on coincidence. How much I talk. The small town of Tasmania. The upcoming weekend. My brother. My drivers licence. The car. Bills. Money. Travel. The end of the year. Friendships. Unsent text messages. The gears of my bike. The cold weather. The cliche of talking about weather.

Feeling guilty each day.
No matter what I do.

Movies? I should study.
Study? It’s so sunny.
See a girl. Late to bed.
Have a bath. Running late.
Work? Why not play.
Stay put. Why not walk.
Have a coffee. Never sleep.
Eat a cake. Get fat.
Drink tea. Need to pee.
Wear shorts? Feel cold.
Jog? Feel hungry.
Weights? Be top heavy.
Sport? Bust my knee.
No time. I need time.

Corrugated iron roofs-
And I don’t know, or care-
If Australia did them first.
One thing I know.

Its raining,
Its raining and raining.
Its beautiful.
Its therapy.

Stay motivated. Keep it fresh.

Be confident that the people around you, don’t know you.

Telling jokes and drinking milk.

Today’s momentary wisdom:
“In time you come to understand certain things”

0:00 I can’t work it out.
How do I feel right now? This instant.
Not hot, not cold. My toes are numb.
I’m tired and drowsy when I stand, alert when I lay down to sleep.
French, English, Business. University!
The future, long term.
My age: currently, the percentage of my life run through already.
The western society we live in. The choices we made each day, to live how we live.
Words. English
The weather and how it affects plans.
Short term.
Girls! Study and work.
Do I have time? Should I be more selfish or less?
I have the time to think these thoughts but no drive or desire to excell.
Sleep take me.
Cocoon of the free subconscious!
Let me pass by a few hours, not absent but definitely away.
Away from this.
Tonight it hit me.
No emotion attached.
I am invested.
Home and all its comforts.
A blessing! To wrestle in safety.
To fall quite comfortably into the cracks.
Not of a stagnant society,
Or the clutches of some depression; wearing the sinister mask of something
Something else not truly ghastly.
Nay! The cracks of a comfy couch.
A movie, just fin!
Relax, enjoy, WITNESS (for its only you that matters)
Roll credits
Goodnight.

For all you Trekkies out there:
“THERE ARE FOUR LIGHTS!”

Also, today I started a new job. Selling booze in a local liquor store.
Brainless, mind-numbing work almost to embarrassment. I helped where I could, displayed initiative even. Failed at banter, which I thought was a laugh:

“Buying a carton eh? You know its the middle of the week… Ha… ha…haaaa”
– get me out of here.

Not to worry, cash cash cash.
The world turns over: in its grave.

Imagine if the lazy eye of some people was looking out, blind to this reality but attuned to another.

Frederika used to work for Mrs Lippman, did you know her?
…
No, hu-uh…
*that face*
…oh wait was she a great big fat person.

A few things.
I CANT BLAH.. (blah was a typo but we’ll roll with it) *BLOG, FROM MY ROOM.
So here I am sitting outside, in the darkness. Inviting plague and fever upon myself, tapping away on my oh-so-lit-up-iPad. Mosquitos please.

Today was a pretty full on day. Starting early with my dad, we walked up the mountain. Over 5 hours and 1 conquered mountain later, we were home drinking tea. Kinda like the British… Or the Spanish. Or French… Maybe not the French. But yeah planted a damn flag. Done and done. Thankyou Mt Wellington for supplying us with water and a huuuge hike.
The bikkies afterwards were so well earned.
Not a moment later I walked and caught up with the girl i’ve been seeing. We went to the beach where I was a dork and talked loads. Collapsing in a sandy heap I chatted without fail. My mind in an opened up passion fruit. I’m a cracked nut. Information and goodness knows what else flowed freely. I do worry myself. And I hope the bystanders and witnesses are ok too.
Dinner with the fam’ was fish. Delish!
Battered flake and a squid ring each, what a treat.

I’m gonna have to go, I’m getting eaten alive, gotta avoid ‘lello fever.

The most important thing in the world is family.
Think about it.

Caught up with a great friend today. Discussed it all.
Jealousy is a sin, but it’s ok if you are.

“The spice of life” – i’ve been saying it alot lately. Interpret it how you will.

And a quote from My good Pal.
Smartphones just enable the user to be able to google themselves at any given moment.

“Nothing can stand in the way of progress” – JFD

Today was all cleaning, running and learning.
3 trash bags of childhood parephenalia junk.
20 minutes jog from north hobart to south! Immense.
And the evening turned into 1 unexpected date night.