Out your camera day.

After yesterday’s Yoga in the sun
And the poor night’s sleep.
My body was a ship-wreck.

Football today was tough.
Redeeming feature mind,
hanging with the boys was great.

I got a new car.
It’s green.
It goes.

I am a great driver.
After great success,
I rode my bike to West Moonah.

A suburb on the “up and up”.
After getting rather lost,
I watched the football.

Today lacked study.
But that’s the choice I made.
I’ll save it for the working week.

Lots of movies to watch, for TEFF.
Life is exciting. Things are happening.

Whenever someone speaks to me.
I take my time and think through my response.

I made coffee today,
Aeropress magic.

Have some self-respect.
I liken him to a parmigiana.
Beaten! Rolled flat.
Covered in bread,
Crummy cheese!
And a sauce that lacks flare.

Cooked, lifeless, tasteless and common.

Taste

I wonder how long one taste remains with you.
Lets say all you ever ate was one spoonful of jam.
How long would that remain with you?
What is the predominant taste in anyone’s mouth.

If the amount of shash I talk has any indication.
I’d say shash is my dominant flavour.

I’ve had a pretty cracked day.
The smart man would rest, wake up tomorrow feeling average.
But let’s go rogue, unhinge from the real world a little bit more.
Study until the death.

Last night’s spy adventures were amazing.
If only I could do that all the time…

Mrs you already

She could have been mine.
Tonight like any other>
Clear skies
Looks fine
We got eachother
Tumble to bed for a rise…

But I opened up.
My mouth, and I said.
I gotta ride my bike back.
She put down her cup
I was already going red.
Laughing, but she gave back black.

She was rad
From northcote she said:
Sot-of anyway. In a melbourne-rash way
It all aussie to me. I get that i’m one of you. I don’t hold you to shame.
I just wanted to be a spy tonight. Let my mind run.
Sit alone, no expectations. Pass on a good vibe.
Laugh, smile, observe. Agree. See what people wanted to be seen doing. Observe people -outside-
_doing_ “swanning around” Being seen in a scene, causing it, being a part of it.
I just wanted to witness and observe. I don’t have to share.
Hot water bottle at home, I just sat there in my chair.
I watched a guy, that looks like another guy, more famous than he.
I saw a friend of a friend, with a skinny light haired girl.
She was friends with the girl, that sat down next to me.
They were soul mates from the get go. “great”

“when are you going to kiss me”
“I’m not, I have to ride my bike home”

And she just let that role.

I tackled the top of a little creatures bottle, patiently I put the kids to bed.
Witnessing the guys, talking careers. Talking habits. Talking talking talking.
Wearing their clothes, spending their money, talking talking talking.
“I’ve given this up. It was hard. Women, Women, Women.”

_boys, boys, boys_ – talking about girls and a boy and a girl.

_small place, strange people, just regular people. PEOPLE._

people are people. 🙂

Communication. You don’t have to. It’s good for feel comfortable, specialise yourself. The most beautiful thing for me at this moment is my power to influence the people around me with a thought. To point, and people look.
To speak, and people listen. This power. Perception, understanding, influence.
Influence is optional. Understanding is inevitable. Perception changes.
Stimuli. Stimulation. The human form, our big brains. Fathoming great limitless ideas.
Equally being snagged on the unimportant. Forgetting the place. The “which way’s north from ‘ere”
The options. The array before you. The choices. The heard. The confusion. Straight legs, no laughter. Hoofs on cobbles, mud and blood from somewhere, a young ones face wet from tears, breath, hot and rising in a fog over each and every-massed-body, facing one way only, penned.

I laughed the loudest who’d have known.

I saw the gold-dragon. He’s looking well. He had some strange friends. I spied them, they spied me.
We’ll leave it there. We did.

I could ruin the moment, and chase that girl up. But maybe its better for her to realise the world works the way it does. People do these things. People act out. The most dramatic? Who can say. People not being true to themselves when their upbringing says the complete and utter to the otherwise. Contradictory actions.
Being your own devils advocate. What about your body? What about your halo, your angel. That child? That person.

People around you know you, some of them. The know of you. They know of your past. What does that change? How they face any situation. Turn the world on its head. I understand this, and this means you should be like this. Acting out, I’ve heard people say this, in my short life and my short memory this vague understanding is something I will say out loud in my own personal kind of way for others to hear.
we’ll all nod, inwardly. Yes, yes, yes.

I agree, that is acting out. I am part of this movement, we’ve all witnessed something. Maybe not maybe you need to share your ideas, gain followers to your cult. Maybe everyone will get onboard. Start a religion, like a tide, or something bigger, more encompassing. A religion like our very SUN is exploding. The world stops spinning, reality as we know it shifts. All fundamentals, from day one. Memories of the sandpit. Emotions, food from the teat. Cared for, nurtured, our choices, our situation ENCOMPASSED by this idea, this STAR. Exploding.

And this idea of yours, this judgement passed by you on someone else that everyone else seems to agree, in complete perfection. A view, a perspective, a thought, word for word, directly translated, absolute in its finality, the description personifying that moment, that thing about this person. YOU ARE YOU. I see them for who they are and how I will say they are is final. For that instant, you are right. You alone, stand unchecked in the universe.

You are either right, or you are wrong. You won’t know.

In asking, you may find out their view.

If it is shared, maybe you two and everyone else would have viewed it the same. This person, being.

If you ask, the moment has passed, How have you asked?
Why did you ask? To what ends do this effect you if you witnessed this person?
What is paramount to you? Where are you going? Why are you in this room,
What could you possibly gain from this situation?
Stimuli.
Internal? External? Both.
The soul. The beauty of your own self amalgamation, that’s probably not the right world. Word…

The way you paint yourself. Self image. Dig it. Rad. Cool. Sick. Ok.
Move around, however you like. Be watched. Watch back
How do they handle it. What are we doing here?
Dig it. Don’t ruin the mood, don’t fuck with the situation.
Don’t over analyse. and if you do, do it with a smile. Bring the vibe up.
Smile, so they thing you’re mad? Made out to be a moron, strange, weird.
Typecast. I know your history. You’re an idiot. You’ll die before me.
You’ll be at my funeral asshole, crying or not, I don’t give a fuck.
I’ll be gone. Burnt, and then put in the ocean. A bit late for that!
I’ll be put in a box and buried. Forgotten. Last seen, under a soon to be parking lot 2026.
Buried. Do you know what that means. Why the fuck am I buried? Elevate me.
My corpse wasn’t elevated before. Get me up! Blast me into outerspace. Floating in space.
Frozen. Here lies Patrick, finally doing the vacuuming. hah!

Remember your time? Yeah 2015, that year. What happened? It was a year for: girls, girls, girls.
Macho, macho. I worry that i’ll become that. Meat headed. Evolutionary.
What is smart. Time spent, “getting it” “IT” stuff, other people don’t easily get.
Don’t take time to get. This GIRL got IT. And now everyone wants it. And if we get IT, even if we get IT in the most perfect sense. Like the Dubliners Rose, it will grow pale and sick.
So press it! squash it flat. Every last drop. Squeeze from it all you can. Because TIME. Time as most people know it, and I am most people. I am the most, MOST person. i’ve ever thought to try to meet, and understand.
My needs. My thoughts. This person. As I understand, just ask me. I’ll see if I confirm. But i’ll laugh, I gaurantee. What’s in it for you asking. For saying anything to me at all. Give. Receive.

I need to pee.

This is only the beginning…

Sum-ah

A day of deep thought.

Nazi’s
Horten heard a who
Evolution
Women

“Being Rad”.

What I wanted to do,
Movement inspire,
Me and you.
Watched not in ire.

If I can manage it all
Stick to tall-orders of fall
The blood in my body
To have somebody

The rush of thought
Time and emotion frought
Aware of the despair
Fear, passion pulled hair

Only afraid of after.
That, as a starter
Bucked all over, around
Skin, bone, flesh, ground.

This is the taste
Time’s bubbles go-to waste
Meet you in the state
My imperfect play mate.

Tinny-classical
Expectations
Handshakes
justifications
applications
implications
Homework
money
coffee
home
food
piss
run
go

This is “words for step-ladder”. A brain exercise to use words in a way going from largest to smallest
as they appear. If you fail, you stop or start again. Its brief and helps unstuck you from writers block.
That’s my idea anyway.

Here’s a quote for this exact situation that I just thought up.
“do you remember every piece of shit you’ve produced and flushed away”
No i’d say you don’t. If you do, you probably need more fibre, you have an imbalance.
Don’t we all. Shit.

Wednesday

Another Wednesday night in. Monday dinner is cancelled. 23 and going to the same fucking place each and every week is a joke. Kill yourself. Make connections with people that don’t look up. Cheap, crappy meals. How could that be good for your mind or build your body? Sell yourself short a little bit more.

Buy a black coffee and add some milk. Call it a jackson.
Its too fucking cold here.
I want my license, I want to drive away into the sunset. Maybe then i’ll be warm.

This weather, this cold, this moment in time.
Meditation, a bath, lack of sun. Has left me with a headache, a hunger for food, an irritation, a niggle. A want for something more, somewhere else with other people that appreciate, that beam up at me like I am their sun. A lifestyle I can appreciate.
Books to read, hammocks, beautiful people, adventure, pioneering discoveries.

Its not quite time.
I still haven’t found the right road.

Axel Foley

Beverly Hills Cop.

Did some French,
Had a bath.

Thinking of exams now
And winter, coming soon.

Luck is what happens to you.
When fate gets tired of waiting.

I need a change,
Maybe an exchange.

Here is my shortlist:

Edinburgh,
USA
France
NZ
Denmark.

GoT

I hope that my test isn’t tomorrow.
I’ve been eating too much.
Most of my main assignments are done.
This winter i’ll use a hot water bottle.
I’m currently working on some home brew.
I have three doonas.
Tuesday I think i’m free.
I want a car and a licence.
I talked to Levi, he’s a really interesting guy.
Hitchhiking and such.
Now its time for a massage.

Assignment done

Tip some out for your mums.

What a Sunday!
Ate too much,
Read a cracked book,
Worked abit.
Now i’m cold, and treating myself to a hot water bottle.

Quality author writes a lot of his stuff in a cafe,
last name is ORLONG.
Too similar to OOLONG to be accidental I say.

This-
To end tonight.
“He was not a modest man. Contemplating suicide, he summoned a dragon.”

Directing traffic

One of those beautiful days.
A wonderful night last night,
Allowed myself a sleep in.

Jogging followed by a coffee,
Walking in the botanical gardens.
Watching autumn leaves and ducks.

Then to Salamanca,
Live music,
Bought a book.
Smiled at every girl & every boy.
Felt warm, felt happy.
Radiant.

Work then dinner
Prepared pancakes for tomorrow.
Happy mothers day!
Now I need to read.

Thumbs up world.
Keep it real.