Christmas

Coming out of Christmas and thinking. “- somebody surprise me with how much you care”.
He took the sensible approach and hit a home run.

‘Selected’ Brian Molkom.
-the lyrics of-

Placebo are my favourite band and B.M. is their voice.

My life, they have been the fulcrum of my coming to terms with feeling emotions I may have had trouble processing and expressing otherwise.
I remember one afternoon finding mum sick and “Meds” had just been released. I cried and cried to the first two songs until I was numb, until my sponge eyes had nothing left. I felt better.

Meds:
I was alone, falling free
Trying my best not to forget
What happened to us, what happened to me
What happened as I let it slip

I was confused by the powers that be
Forgetting names and faces
Passers by were looking at me
As if the could erase it

Baby… did you forget to take your meds?
Baby… did you forget to take your meds?

I was alone, staring over the ledge
Trying my best not to forget
All manner of joy, all manner of glee
And our one heroic pledge

How it mattered to us, how it mattered to me
And the consequences
I was confused by the birds and the bees
Forgetting if I meant it

Baby… did you forget to take your meds?
Baby… did you forget to take your meds?

And the sex and the drugs and the complications

I was alone, falling free, trying my best not to forget.

Infra-red
One last thing before I shuffle off the planet
I will be the one to make you crawl
So I came down to wish you and unhappy birthday

Someone call the ambulance
There’s gonna be an accident

I’m coming up on infra-red, there is no running that can hide you
‘Cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red, forget your running, I will find you

One more thing before we start the final face-off
I will be the one to watch you fall
So I came down to crash and burn your beggar’s banquet

Someone call the ambulance
There’s gonna be an accident

I’m coming up on infra-red, there is no running that can hide you
‘Cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red, forget your running, I will find you

And the dark is running after you
That’s right, the dark is running after you
The dark is after you

Someone call the ambulance
There’s gonna be an accident

I’m coming up on infra-red, there is no running that can hide you
‘Cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red, forget your running, I will find you
‘Cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red, there is no running that can hide you
‘Cause I can see in the dark
I’m coming up on infra-red, forget your running, I will find you

I will find you
I will find you

These are two songs that have touched me deeply.
But the beauty lies in the tangle of associative memories I have with each song:

One for each emotion.
One for alone
One for together
One for sex
One for sport
One for party
One for girls
One for guys
One and the same.
Any song for any time.

I’m not an overly emotional person. When I listen to Placebo I’m immersed, I feel.

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